I won’t write much now. Just few lines to thank God.
Thank you God for everything, whether it be happiness or a pinch of pain. Both are important for life to know the meaning of both these two qualities of life. Happiness behaves like the sugar of life completing the need of sweetness. Pain behaves like the hard chili which burns your heart. But because of both of this the salt in your life is maintained. Don’t get confused. Salt is the most important thing in anybody’s life. More important than sugar and chili. And thus when the emotions acting as sugar and chili comes up together life gets balanced like a normal person’s life just like salt.
It was a painful experience to be in CCU. Watching your blood pressure rise and come down. You don’t know when your life is going to leave your hand. She was afraid, there were many incomplete stories that she had to say. She wanted to tell her mother that she is fine, she wanted to tell her boss cum sister that let her take home, she will get better, she wanted to speak to someone and take out all her anger which was like a sediment beneath her heart. She wanted to look outside the window and check on the blowing wind, the trees the nature. But, her body did not support. She was breathless put on oxygen. Her heart was out of control beeping as fast as a fast running fan blade. She lost the hope of life.
Well, after a few hours every test was done and her heart was found perfect. It was not less than a miracle because at which condition she was taken to the hospital it was like 50-50 chances of her survival. It was the prayers of family, friends, colleagues, well wishers who were praying to the lord for her well being. She survived and came back completely fit. She got the second chance of life and now she believes that not everyone gets this second chance. You earn this. Karma returns.
हमारे देश और हमारी परंपरा के अनुसार पीला रंग शुभ माना जाता है. हर अच्छे काम की शुरुआत हल्दी के तिलक से की जाती है. वहीं इस रंग से सुंदरता में भी निखार आता है. शादी में हल्दीलेपन क्यों होता है ताकि दूल्हा दुल्हन का रंग निखर कर आए.
आज उसकी छुट्टी थी तो उसने लैपटॉप निकाला और कॉमेडी फिल्म देखने लग गयी. अकेली थी कमरे में फिल्म में मन भी लग रहा था. बीच बीच में उसकी हंसी का शोर दूसरे कमरे तक जा रहा था. वैसे तो फिल्म में बहुत ज्यादा कॉमेडी नहीं थी पर उसे हंसना था इसलिए कलाकार की थोड़ी सी कलाबाजी में वह खुश हुए जा रही थी. फिर फिल्म का एक सीन आया जहाँ एक महिला ने पीली साड़ी पहनी थी. पीली साड़ी में फिल्म की वो एक्ट्रेस बहुत खूबसूरत लग रही थी.
लगती भी कैसे ना पीली साड़ी जो ठहरी. महिला होते तो आपको इस पीली साड़ी की अहमियत पता होती, पर हाँ कुछ पुरुषों को भी इस पीले रंग कि साड़ी का अंदाजा जरूर होगा. फिल्म में एक्ट्रेस को पीले साड़ी में देखकर वह भी खुश हो रही थी. दरअसल वह खुश नहीं उसे कुछ याद आ गया था. उसे दोबारा उसके साथ बिताए पल याद आ गए.
तीन साल पहले…..
एक दिन दोनों कमरे में बैठे बैठे बोर हो रहे थे. लड़के की छुट्टी थी. वह घर पर था. तो इसने कहा आपने आज तक मुझे कोई तोहफा क्यों नहीं दिलाया. वैलेंटाइन हो या कुछ भी मैं आपसे कभी भी कुछ नहीं मांगती. आज दिला दीजिये मेरे मन में कुछ है जो मैं आपसे चाहती हूँ. लड़के ने मना कर दिया कहा क्या चाहिए तुझे सब तो है तेरे पास कोई जरूरी चीज चाहिए क्या. उसने कहा जो मुझे चाहिए वो जरूरी तो नहीं है पर वो आपका दिया तोहफा होगा, इसलिए वो हर मायने में जरूरी होगा. लड़का किसी तरह मान गया और दोनों बाजार गए.
लड़के ने पूछा क्या चाहिए तुझे उसने कहा मुझे साड़ी चाहिए. वैसे साड़ी उसका पहनावा नहीं था पर पता नहीं क्यों उसे साड़ी ही चाहिए थी. फिर दोनों एक दुकान में गए. तीन चार साड़ियों के बीच उसे एक पीली साड़ी पसंद आयी. उसने साड़ी अपने कंधे पर डालकर शीशे में खुद को निहारा और खुद को दो तीन बार और देखने से नहीं रोक पायी. उसपर वह पीली साड़ी बहुत जंच रही थी. लड़के को भी अच्छी लगी. लड़के ने पूछा यही लेना है, उसने हाँ में सर हिलाया. वह बहुत खुश थी.
जब वह शीशे में खुद को देख रही थी तब मन ही मन बहुत खुश हो रही थी. वह उसके बारे में सोच रही थी कि मुझे इस साड़ी में देखकर उन्हें कितनी ख़ुशी होगी. भले ही मैंने खरीदने को कहा हो पर है तो यह उनका दिया तोहफा ही. वे मुझे इस साड़ी में देखेंगे तो उन्हें तो मुझपर प्यार आ जाएगा.
यही सब सोचकर वह खुश हुए जा रही थी. दोनों आगे बढ़े लड़के को पूजा के लिए कुछ सामान लेना था. चलते चलते उसने लड़के से पूछा आपको साड़ी पसंद आयी ना. लड़के ने कहा हाँ साड़ी अच्छी है पर बहुत महंगी है. यही साड़ी तू कहीं और से लेती तो बहुत कम में मिल जाता. लड़के की यह बात सुनकर जैसे उसके कान से खून बहने लगा. वह अंदर से बहुत उदास हो गयी. लड़के ने इसके प्यार की तुलना पैसों से कर दी थी. एक बार कहा भी कि चलिए वापस लौटा देते हैं पर लड़के ने मना कर दिया.
उस वक्त उसके मन में यह ख्याल आया कि काश वो उस पीली साड़ी वाले तोहफे के लिए बोलती ही नहीं. समय बिता और उसे कभी ये मौका नहीं मिला कि वह उस पीली साड़ी को पहनकर उसे दिखाए. आज भी उसने वो साड़ी संभाल कर रखी है और आज भी वह उस साड़ी में बेहद खूबसूरत लगती है.
Friends I don’t know how to weave a story but am trying to. I don’t know whether anybody is reading it or not but if I can somehow express any kinda emotion through these stories I would like to know. Feed back will help me improve.
So…now she is doing well. She is deeply hurt inside but she doesn’t have anyone to share her pain. Well jiska koi nahi hota uska bhagwaan hota hai, haha…The same was her thought.
She returned to her normal life along a new company ‘heart attack’. She wakes up early, cooks her food, packs her tiffin, gets ready and waits for the cab to office. In between that 10 minutes when her cab driver tells bas 5 minutes mein pahunch rha hun madam, she thinks about him once. This had become the daily routine.
One day she did the most stupid thing. Well well well, though this thing which she thinks was the most stupid thing wasn’t the stupidest. There were more such incidents to come now. And this stupid thing was…she called him. Phone was ringing….her heart was pounding…her ears turned red…she was excited to hear him. She thought that after knowing her health condition he might have changed now. Might be he has some feeling now for her. But, he didn’t picked.
She got upset…eyes were full of tear. The tear was just to come out suddenly her phone rang. She was very happy. Her tears of sorrow turned into happiness. But this happiness was going to be temporary. He called her not to know about her well being but to end the relationship. He was so not hesitate to tell her ‘lets break up’. He blamed her for many things which was not her fault. But she still kept quiet. Not because she was weak but she knew that if she starts speaking then he will have not a single word in defense. And the other reason was, she thought that if that was their last conversation then let him speak so that she could hear him all. She wanted to satisfy her heart and ears with his words although those words were so cruel. She didn’t ask him why he wants breakup and said okay. So now she had one more company ‘loneliness’.
Well this was not the actual breakup. Upcoming is the twist when she is gonna be taking a bold step. And later when he returns realizing his fault something happens with her.
Its again long time. I can’t do anything to this habit. Sorry for this friends, will try to improve. So today I have a story for you named ‘Heart Attack’. Hope you will like it.
She was in her room trying to calm herself. She was in extreme pain. Her heartbeat was running rapidly faster than anything. She was not able to breathe. She was taking deep breaths and was letting it off with heavy effort. She was not able to keep her breaths with herself. There was chest pain with the left arm, left leg and whole left portion of the body dipped in pain. There was immense pain in her body, it was attack. She could not recognize it because it had never appeared before nor was she familiar with the attack symptoms. But after the attack even, she didn’t faint. She held herself tight, she was not able to move, her head was light headed but she drank water and tried to calm herself.
The whole night she was in extreme pain. She could not sleep and with puffy eyes she went to doctor next day. Doctor checked and understood it, luckily she was accompanied with her friend. The doctor did not mentioned much but told her friend to take very good care of her. Blood pressure checked slightly high, pulse rate (heartbeat) checked super high. Her heart was not healthy, the only thing mentioned by the doctor. Well these were the early signs of serious heart issues, so the doc instructed her to take continuous medicine. She was also told for ECG, which she ignored.
That was her first heart attack. Well this is not as it is heard. Actually, she was in immense pain from inside. She was hurt inside. He left her alone when she needed him. He left her saying that she was the root of every problem. He cursed her for every single thing which she did not even committed. But he got a person to blame and she was it. She cried and cried, she could not control her thoughts her emotions, She was drowned in the river of pain which could not be seen and could not be felt by anyone until who himself or herself suffers from the same. And she got the first painful gift the ‘Heart Attack’ from the person whom she loved from all her heart.
There are more to come but not now. Now she was under medication. Though she did not wanted to live but she had some debts for which she had to live. She now was trying to forget him. She did not wanted any more pains no more attacks. It is more scary when nobody is there with you to hold you.
बड़ी तन्हाई है इस बड़े से शहर में भीड़ में चल रहे दो लोग भी अकेले नज़र आते हैं, हर एक इंसान इतना व्यस्त, इतना डूबा है, समेटने में अपने हरे गुलाबी कागज़ के पन्नो को हां वो मेहनत कर रहे हैं रोटी कमाने के लिए अपना और अपने परिवार को सारी खुशी देने के लिए, पर पता नहीं क्यों हर कोई उदास नज़र आता है, शायद मेरी आँखों में उदासी कुछ ज्यादा है, या उन्हें मुस्कुराते देखा नहीं है अर्सों से, मैंने खुद ही तो घर छोड़ा है, इन इमारतों की ऊंचाई को करीब से देखने के लिए, पर अब आंखें तर गयी है घर पर बैठी माँ को देखने के लिए,
After he had finished asking for the deal, he asked Asha for the joining date. Asha was in a black state of mind. Obviously she had not thought herself to be encountered with such a rascal. She just wanted herself to get rid of that place and that wolf as soon as she can. Then, after a few seconds Asha told that she will call back and tell him the date of joining. It was night. The man told Asha that he too is leaving for home so he will drop her to the point where she can avail transport to her place. They both came down together, now while getting down from his car he once again reminded her of the favor. She told, I will think and will get back to you. Then they both left for their homes.
It was not expected. The girl from a small town had never even imagined of such an accident kinda incident. She never had thought that whatever misbehaves or cheap conversations she had seen and read all her way long will some day be a nightmare for her too. Asha was feeling helpless and many times thought of filing a complaint against him. But, we all know the Indian law. Our law demands for proof which she didn’t had.And that too against a well known person in his field. Huhhhhh..later on she shared about this incident to her roommates and to her best friend. The next day the man again called her but she didn’t picked up the phone and blocked him. She was feeling very impure though nothing had happened but still she was in disrest kind of mind. She was upset that she was trying to get a job here and what she got. But, thanks to her best friend. He called that dirty man and just told him the next time he tries to do this with Asha or any other girl, he will be there behind the bars.
That yoga trainer’s name is Anup Agarwal. He is a spiritual yoga trainer who thinks that sex is a treatment for relaxation of mind. What rubbish.
So this chapter ends here. Soon there will be some more incidents and don’t worry Asha met with some really genuine guys too. She did not loose her courage and kept on searching but this time she was more aware and looking a job in her own field.